urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph all for nothing then nothing is what u will become and if nothing is what u will anangelsepitaph 2004-11-15T23:32:16Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph:2476 2004-11-15T23:32:16Z 2004-11-15T23:32:16Z My american heart OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am soo a total HIM fan again, i kinda lost intrest in them after a while but then miraculously i got 2 free tickets to see them last night and me and Eric went. we bused into the city and got there as the first opening act was going off stage and we watched the 2nd band and then started pushing up towards the front i saw "will" jess's friend that she was there with but no signe of jess so we moved on. by the time HIm got on we were like 5 feet from the front of the crowd, and then it happend HIM came on stage and opened up with ( Buried alive by love ) an amazing song, and after maybe 5 songs i was all the way up front with Eric me and him rocking out with HIM lol i made a funni hehehe and then my back starting giving away me and my damn back probs, they suck soo then i went in the back which i could see the stage really well without trying to stay alive, i love my size but somtimes it really sucks cause i cant go agasint these huge guys they just basically move me with no effort lol grrrr soo yeah HIM played alot of good songs i was very impressed with there performance. i got a bottle of water, 2 bucks not that bad for a concert lol soo then i went down stairs and called my dad on 1 800 call att lol i made a collect call at like 12 at night lol soo then the concert ended at 12 22 and i was standing nxt to will and this time soo then i was like ima stand here look for Eric and say happy birthday to jess cause i knew she was around some where lol soo then she came and i hugged her and said happy b day she looked like she was haveing a blast soo then i said my good byes and walked outside and looked for Eric and luckely found him and then we headed to the subway cought the Q to 34th street and then walked to 42nd Street and went to the port athority and cought a bus to hackensake nj!!! ( Victoria town ) also the home of Eric soo we went to hise house got there around 2 in the moring then we were waiting for his dad to drive me home but we ended up falling asleep in Erics room listening to Pink floyde and then i woke up at 4 and was like shit i gotta get home soo i woke eric up and he drove me home and i got there around 5 lol we had to make a 7/11 stop for coffee dont wana fall asleep at the wheel lol soo i got home and me being me i sighned on line and then no one was on soo i didnt take a shower and went to sleep around 6 knowing i had like 1 1/2 hours to sleep until skool lol soo i got up and went to skool and thats about it.<br /><br />" i found her, she must find me now" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph:2241 2004-11-08T00:33:01Z 2004-11-08T00:33:01Z Underoath yours eyes captivate me................. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph:1980 2004-11-06T03:36:38Z 2004-11-06T03:36:38Z My Chemical Romance all i can say is that Bleeding through was amazing. they played first and i was literlly 3 feet from all of them exept guitar 2, drummer and keyboard i was soo close to them like at a reckless show when u stand at the stage thats how i was standing for bleeding through it was soo amazing, brandan grabbed my hand during "number 7 with a bullet" i was like wow!!! there performance was amazing. and then i walked over to the pizza thing and i was odering pizza arch enemy was allready playing and the guitarist of bleeding through commented on my pants "female" pants soo they were exremly tight and he was like i love ur pants man and we started a convo from there and we talked alot and i met the rest of them it was really kool i also met the guys from arch enemy, Himsa didnt play bc not all of them showed up but yeah, Cralde of filth was terrrialbe and i wasnt even that much of a fan and now i just have like no liking for there music. they played for like 2 hours. i told brandan "lead singer" of bleeding through that my friend jessica &lt;3 thinks he is really hot and he was like naa im not lol im telling u these guys are really down to earth and had kool bealts that said "drug free" it was awsome yeah but like this whole 4 day weekend soo far i been awaiting jessica to get home i miss her soo much i have never missed someone this much before its just amazing how many feelings i have for her there sooo stronge i want to ask her out but i know she isnt ready for a relationship, but if she was to become my grl friend i would hold on to her forever and i mean its like everytime i kiss her she blows me away bc she is just so so i cant even explain i just love her\<br /><br />Drew urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph:1554 2004-11-04T03:05:59Z 2004-11-04T03:05:59Z Opeth yesterday school was pretty chilled out, i got there and my 1st period teacher wasnt there soo i went to the caf and had myself breakfast oh yeah i own all of u! then i went to second period and found out that i have a B in english which is really good considering im in andvanced English class. well the nxt few periods i got out either early from class or i had a Free cause the teacher wasnt there. then came lunch the most awsome time of the day which for me happends to be 1 bu this time i am having thoughts of her go through my head like the 1st movment of bethoveens 5th symphony. Honestly at the way i am feeling for jessica i would deffenitly want to spend the rest of my life with her and then some. But yeah jessica is amazing so amazing i waited 8 months to be with her, and all that 8 months did to me what make my love for her more intenss. through those 8 months i didnt really share with her how i was feeling because i was affraid of rejection but now that she knows and she also is feeling it i am the happiest man in the world. I swear when i touch,hug,kiss her i get this over whellming feeling of comfort and rightness like nothing could ever go wrong. I mean we spend on usual 7 hours talking to eachother and we always have somthing to say. I love talking to her i could never get tired of her she is just idk i cant explain sooo amazing that u cant put the feeling into words in the english language. id do anything for her and i know she would for me. i have never been this happy in my life and i am just like in a bliss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph:1345 2004-11-01T23:05:30Z 2004-11-01T23:05:30Z Open hand ( time to talk ) well, i got new shoes and yes they own and i got a new hoodie and it owns too well basically everything i have owns exept for my........nvm we wont get into that hahahah well the head bangers ball concert is on thursday its gona be a hell of a time me will kohei soc and john all going like old times. lol somthing funni i learned is that im a legend back in my middle skool someone dressed up as me and my bro for holloween hahah thats fucking awsome and then yesterday i saw some douche wearing a slipknot shirt and bvlack lip stick and black nail polish and i hung myself out of socs car anf fucking slapped the kid on the back of the head and then drove off lol hahaha im sooo funni!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well ima go now ttyl &lt;3 and this was for u urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph:1154 2004-10-25T00:06:25Z 2004-10-25T00:06:25Z The coldest sun The coldest sun " Fairwell " <br /><br /><br />I wake each day<br />with your picture in my hand<br />and these words escape me<br />when there's nothing left to say<br /><br />just say goodbye<br /><br />i thought about your eyes<br />i saw the dusk in your glare<br />your words are like a fire<br />and you burn me alive<br /><br />just say good bye<br /><br />these echoes follow me on my way<br />a thousand voices like a thousand knives<br />ive survived on the thought of you alone<br />and i can still hear your voice<br /><br />will you come back to me<br />i refuse to left you die, without me<br /><br />the sun will destroy the darkness<br />no shadows can hide this scar<br />we'll meet again on the back of a star<br />and gladly die at each others hands<br /><br />will you come back to me<br />i refuse to let you die, without me<br /><br />our worlds will fall apart, this moment will stand still<br />ill let my heart die, it just more of myself to kill<br />so we'll bleed rivers along the earth <br />and follow scarlets in the sky<br />we'll live in somber silence and say nothing but goodbye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph:874 2004-10-21T04:31:22Z 2004-10-21T04:31:22Z Endwell today was an ok day i spent it with friends Tj, steven, laura, alyssen and thats it. the red sox beat the yankees for the first time for ever and are now in the world series sooo thats kool no one is answering my im's well i guess its cause its 12 25 in the morning im waiting for my mother to get home bc i cant sleep and im just a good son like that lol soc fractured his ancle good going man we are going to see cradle in like 2 weeks hahahah no moshing for u, i am trying to set up this awsome show with my friend Eric from an awsome band called " the coldest sun" well ttyl guys urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph:560 2004-10-19T01:58:54Z 2004-10-19T01:58:54Z underoath Underoath * when the sun sleeps"<br /><br />I thought you'd come back at least i prayed<br />the romance has been dead for years<br />but i've been too afraid to dig the grave<br />relief support never came<br />memories carry me through the day<br />of when we were kids<br />and angels came to watch us play<br />close my eyes just for tonight<br />the sun still sleeps and when she wakes<br />a movie that plays in my mind<br />remembring you helps me survive<br />every day a re-run of the next<br />i promised to stay by your side<br />that all would change i can't complain<br />another victim of the game<br />maybe love will find us again<br />for there is always tomorrow<br />sincerely till the end close my eyes<br />just for tonight the sun still sleeps<br />and when she wakes you'll be a memory urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:anangelsepitaph:391 2004-10-18T01:38:06Z 2004-10-18T01:38:06Z Endwell this is my first entry the only reason i really made this was so i can read jess's live joural lol ttyl bye bye